Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Green paper leaf

About a year ago I attended a funeral for a good man who I cared very much for and had known for a long time. He went home after a brave battle with pancreatic cancer.


This green paper leaf was given out for another purpose, but I kept mine. (Was that wrong?)

I added it to the collection of sentimental and beloved objects on the mantle in my studio-that I might remember to thank God for him and pray for his family often. 


I grieve with these loved ones in my heart now, but I'm so thankful to have had my life intertwined with him and his wonderful family...



The shrine of my heart...
(There are more objects crammed into my studio than fit on the mantle.)


Thursday, October 16, 2014

Self prescribed deadline

Life has been a bit a whirlwind for me recently. 
A painful episode with Lyme disease (which hopefully had a furious onslought and was nipped in the bud), wedding planning ( then thank you's and albums still not completed) and the daily life of to-do's: 
participating in exhibitions, being the main caretaker of my 3 year old, teaching art classes, working almost full time bartending and using whatever hours are left of the deep night to paint and to keep my career going...

I usually try to complete about 10 paintings every 3 months. I am painfully aware that I haven't put new work "out there" since may. But my rush to get new work out there and to keep the momentum of my career going doesn't always synch with my creativity or the unavoidable restrictions of my life. I aim to do my very best in all things. Sometimes there's just too many "things"... Including the need to rest. Arg.

Luckily sales have been stable despite all of the way lays. Amen.

With all this being said, there is a body of work that I've poured a great deal of my heart, soul, body and mind into. I aim to have my photographer out to take photos of these pieces by the first week of November. God willing, they will be strong, poignant and many.
Just keep going... 

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

"Getting it"

The other night, while bartending, i found myself in a great conversation with a regular who is a statistician. It was the  first time we had been allowed an extended time to talk. 

Somehow we got into the fact that I am an artist. From there some phrases were thrown into the conversation such as- "I am not artistic at all" and " I just took one art history class in college". 

When I hear such statements it is a trigger to reassure and break down barriers. In many ways I'd much rather talk to somebody who doesn't know all the fancy words and instead just speaks from their gut. With such disclaimers out of the way, they are usually more free to speak from their hearts without encumbrance. And I am eager to listen.

This man, unbeknownst to himself, knows a great deal about art and how to observe it. My medium , encaustic, elicited the most explanation- but he needed little assistence in internalizing and reflecting on specific pieces. Beautiful... 

This was in joyful contrast to recently observing another artist (who is of a more traditional bent) railing an installation art piece to a patron at an exhibit. The Patron might have been confused by the piece if they are not familiar with installation or concept art, but the guide made them dismiss it completely. I was greatly offended.

Artists who "take it out of the box" and shake things up a little are often a breath of fresh air.  Famous artists who once did that and were greatly ridiculed are now some the most praised  (Ex. Monnet, Sargent, Duchamp)

My guess is that if that patron was left alone and not told what to think, her reaction would have been at least a bit different. 

I guess what I'm trying to say is that the putting on of eirs in regards to art is often inhibiting.  Just because you know some fancy terms ( and yes, I know them too and will spend the next 10+ years gladly paying for it)  doesn't mean that you actually "get it".  

And whatever is to be "gotten" from my work and many others is in the unincumbered viewers gut response.   They observe without being told what to think and if it strikes them, it is in a meaningful and personal way. That is sacred in its own right.

Thursday, September 18, 2014

Mrs Gerrard

I finally married my Joel a few days ago with our almost 3 year old daughter in tow. It's a crazy story of how we finally got here after knowing each other for the past 17 years. Now that the wedding has happened, I am eager to continue to pursue my "Reliquary" series. This is by far the most personal group pieces I've ever painted. Looking and hoping for a good place to debut them later this fall...
Regardless, you're sure to see them here.

Sunday, August 31, 2014

Fantastic paper sculptures...

A great article I found tonight-

Astonishing sculptures made from plain paper http://us.cnn.com/2014/08/29/world/astonishing-sculptures-made-from-nothing-but-paper/index.html

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Delay

I'm getting married in 16 days. While trying to keep everything simple, I'm afraid that I've been more distracted than usual from my work. This is a shame because I'm so excited about this new body of work. I suppose that will make me all the more eager to get back into it more fully when the to-do lists no longer include the many things involving the wedding. 

Here's to a wonderful wedding to my dearest, Joel- the father of my child and my best friend . 
And onto everything life holds for us , including my diligence to my artistic calling. 

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Beauty is marred by ill intent

Oft grace procures a mirror

Illuminate the the lack of love

Peace comes with mercy's tremble.


(During my wind down time- after a busy day and shift bar tending- my brain has been through the gamut of subject matter.  My heart as well. This phrase keeps running through my head...)