Thursday, December 27, 2012

To live passionately...

“I would rather be ashes than dust! I would rather that my spark should burn out in a brilliant blaze than it should be stifled by dry-rot. I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet. The function of man is to live, not to exist. I shall not waste my days trying to prolong them. I shall use my time.”

~Jack London

Monday, December 24, 2012

Blessings...

Last minute holiday sales are the best!
When you support an artist by purchasing something you often provide their:

 studio rent, cover the fees for the shows they would like to participate in, enable them to buy supplies, help to buy food/diapers/clothes for their child/children, pay the electric bill or student loans, enable them to order out pizza one night instead of having to cook, put a little in that savings account for their little one and perhaps give them the luxury of not having to worry so much about it all for a little while. (At least that is how it benefits me) thank you!

Monday, December 17, 2012

Here

So often when i approach the time when I know I should write a blog post, I become anxious.
It is not writing that makes me nervous (though most posts are influenced in some way by sleep deprivation- and that often makes me nervous in retrospect)...

It is a balance and an awkward dance for me- to speak from my heart and current experiences but in a professional manner.
The words I put out "here" can be taken many ways.

As an abstract artist, I have grown to be comfortable with that in regards to my work. with my words and experiences- its an on going challenge to find the right balance.
(add to that challenge- how do I express the profound impact of my Christian beliefs without alienating anyone...)

Perhaps it is naive in a way, but I would like to honestly convey myself here. At the same time I can grow weary at the sound of my own voice, even if it is via text.


i suppose it might be helpful to give you a general context of who I am in case you don't know me.
I an 31 years old. I have been pursing a career as a professional artist for 9 years.
I bartend almost full time to help supplement my expenses.
About 14 months ago, Joel and i were given the greatest gift and biggest responsibility of being the parents to our amazing daughter, Annaleah. Truly- "mama" is the best thing i have ever been!!!

I find my time to create my work, catch up on business aspects of my career and post here late at night when she is asleep and often after at least an 8 hour shift of bar tending.

The baby monitor gives me the comfort of knowing how she is doing while I try to focus on the tasks at hand.

(And those tasks at hand most often involve trying to pour my heart fully into my work. )


Please bare with me as I continue to learn how to best communicate and convey a realistic picture of myself, my work and my business here.

Thank you for reading my blog and thank you to all of those who encourage and support me.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Do it good

My heart is heavy for the families in CT who have lost their loved ones. The idea of losing a child is unimaginable, but to lose your child in such a way...
My heart gets overwhelmed- tears won't suffice. My prayers must be enough... What else can I do?

At some point, along with the busy schedule of bar tending and being mommy, the news gets turned off. And tonight I have to work in the studio on something that is difficult and at this moment annoying. I realize that this is all so trivial compared to what those families are going through...
But I have to get it done.

A song comes to mind. The same one often pops into my head during such challenging scenarios in the studio, and one line in particular.

"Just do what you do and do it good"

From "Do it Good" by Bill Withers.
In this part of the song bill withers is quoting booker t. he was giving him advice as he was beginning to record his first album.
I know that it is grammatically incorrect, but at the same time there is a difference between "good" and "well". It resonates with me and I'm grateful for the simple words giving good advice on a funky background in my head as I get to work.

Friday, December 14, 2012

Artistic competition...

In general I have found that the competitive spirit can bring out some of the ugliest qualities in people. At the same time it can push people in a positive way.

Among artists, I have seen a wide array of competitiveness. I, myself have felt, wrestled and dealt with it.
I realize that there are many many artists out there trying to do what I am trying to do. And there are only so many galleries, buyers and exhibition spaces...
This can make artists competitive with one another.

Unfortunately it is true that there are thieves in every profession. It is wise to guard yourself artistically to a certain extent because there are some people out there who have ill motives.

If you have worked very hard for years to know your medium and express your vision with it , it can feel like a violation when an artist steps into your life and wants you to show them exactly how you do what you do. "I want you to show me how to paint like you do." (Please note- these scenarios are not an artist just wanting to learn a new medium or simply trying to understand my work)

Likewise, if you have spent years building your career and somebody you barely know or don't know at all (who is just starting out on their career path) asks you to hook them up with every connection you worked hard to make, you can feel like a line has been crossed.
"Hello my name is (somebody). I'm just starting to show my work. Looking at your résumé online, I see you have had some experience. Can you recommend me to the exhibitors you have worked with?"


But at the same time there is a healthy place of fellowship that can be had between artists. It is a hard thing to try and make a career out of your art. The support of fellow artists can truly be invaluable. I have been very blessed to have artists more advanced in their careers than i, encourage me and give me some pointers along the way. They have often been savers of my sanity!
I also aim to encourage fellow artists.

I was inspired to talk about this subject after a meeting with a fellow artist. While talented and having a vision of her own, she was having trouble with the encaustic medium. We did a private lesson, where I aimed to help her do what she was trying to do and as a fellow artist, encourage her to continue. She spoke of finding much opposition from other artists to help her. in a way, i could understand both sides of the scenario...

I spent some time trying to look up online psychological analysis about artistic competitiveness. This is one thing I found-

"How does competition either help or hurt creativity?
According to Mark A. Runco, author of Creativity, Theories and Themes: Research, Development, and Practice, all individuals are unique or idiosyncratic when it comes to the effects of competition.

For example, Brian Wilson of the Beach Boys did not handle competition well, becoming increasingly depressed with competitive pressures.

On the other hand, the Beatles probably benefited from the increasing competition between John Lennon and Paul McCartney, Runco states, quoting a 2006 study by Greg Clydesdale of Massey University.

The same study showed a similar competitive relationship between Georges Braque and Pablo Picasso who mixed competition and collaboration, similar to Lennon and McCartney.
Another psychology researcher, George Spurling, referred to the Picasso-Braque competition as a “rivalry that proved one of the richest and most productive in Western art.”

http://www.allpsychologycareers.com/topics/social-psychology-and-creativity.html


In general, as an artist i believe it is a matter of drawing a line. I will help people in many ways, but I will not put my name on the line by recommending somebody I don't know. Nor will i help people who seem to want to "steal" whatever secrets there may seem to be about how i do my work. ( I have had encounters with some rather brazen characters!)


Please understand that I will bring you into my studio if you want to come. I will even give pointers or a general introduction to
Encaustic. (Which has become rather fashionable ). I will certainly try to encourage fellow artists. I will talk about the personal meaning of my work and process, but at some point a line can be crossed and warning bells go off.

Please let me assure you that in the negative instances mentioned above, it became clear that the person had ill intentions.
While I aim for my career to continually advance, I am very grateful for the experiences that I have had and that I've been able to continue to do this. And I am exceedingly grateful for the support I have received along the way.

Monday, December 10, 2012

Image

I have pondered several things to talk about here tonight. I'm exhausted so I'll just have to be satisfied to share this image from my studio steps.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

New Work

 
"Awake"
36"x36"
encaustic on panel
 
 
see more at ebcbrown.com.